If I were strong
I’d stand up to you
And never let you get away with
All this monstrous abuse

If I weren’t weak
I’d swallow this shame
I could walk out of this life for good
And never look on it again

If I were brave
I wouldn’t put on a show
And pretend my life was perfect and
I’d just pack my things and go

If I weren’t scared
I’d strike out on my own
Leave you so far behind me now
And make my way back home

But I’m just a boy
Who doesn’t know who I am
And questions every step I take
So far from who I should have been

I listened to you
Now look where I am
Beaten down to nothingness
Nothing but a pathetic sham

If I were smart
I’d get rid of you
Finally do all those things that I
I always dreamed that I would do

If I weren’t a fool
I’d run far away from
And ignore your empty promises
While I searched for my brand new day

If I were hard
I’d brace for the pain
That your cruelty rains down on me
With the break of every day

If I weren’t soft
I might even fight back
Show you I’m worth more than all your lies
Finally find myself at last

’cause I am a boy
Searching for who I am
I have faced the pain every day
And I’ll never back down again

I won’t listen to you
No not ever again
I will walk away and heal the pain
Refuse to let you pull me back in

Because I am strong
I’m taking my life back
My mind is made I break away
My life is set on my own track

Because I am brave
I’ll make myself safe
You’ll never hear a word from me
I’m gone without a single trace

Because I am smart
I can make it alone
I don’t need nobody holding me
And dragging me into their hole

Because I am hard
I will bury the love
I once had for you so long ago
That tugs on the strings of my heart

’cause I am a boy
On my own I can stand
And I know this road ahead is hell
But I’ll do for me the best that I can

I am a boy
Deserving of love
And no matter what you do to me
I will never ever give up

Will is an author and artist and producer (it’s only one indie short film but it’s on IMDB.com so it totes counts!) and founder of fetchentertainment.com and pain in the ass. He rather opinionated and has no problem sharing his thoughts on a variety of topics from the freakshow that was Election 2016 (how tf did Trump freaking win!?) to the importance of matching that belt to those shoes. He adores penguins and has a maniacal plan to use an army of them to take over the world and crown himself Emperor of All That Is (though he’d be happy with the Winter Russian Palace in what he would rename Mine!-Mine!-Mine!) but until then enjoys hiding away in his apartment and writing all sorts of tales that would worry that cokehead Sigmund Freud (really, we should believe he snorted for science!?) and drawing pictures of his creations.

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