Yes, it is. Karinth smiled, though it was cold. So happy to know you haven’t lost use of all your facilities.
That is the risk you take when you barter with the source of all that is good. Or… you could give into some of those tendencies and remove certain obstacles. Embrace you desire to kill and destroy and leave that adorable prince of yours with only you as an option. Karinth grinned. Of course, he discovers your insidious blood lust, he may rethink being with you.
Antoni considered for a moment what it would mean to give into the impulses and do as Karinth suggested; kill those who stand between him and happiness. It would not be difficult to arrange a few accidents; Annalisa, Tidus, even Beatrice could all be dealt with and Sora would never need to know. Yes, just remove them from the way…
No! He recoiled in disgust. No, I could never…
Suit yourself. It was only a suggestion.
What are you doing here? Antoni moved back, distrustful of what would bring the witch-boy out of his seclusion. Visits were not part of the deal.
Karinth smiled. You seemed as though you were in need of a friend.
You seemed as though you were in need of a friend.
You are no friend of mine.
Oh, on the contrary, my dear prince, I may be the only friend you have so you might be a bit nicer to me. Now, why don’t you ask me what you’re dying to know before I tire of your insolence and abandon you to your heartbreaking loneliness.
Just go away.
Alright, Karinth said, shrugging his shoulders as he turned away. As you wish-
What is wrong with me? Why am I so quick to violent fantasies and urges to destroy that which stands in my way? Though I may be mischievous and even selfish, I am not a cruel being yet I desire such… horrible fates to befall those who are barely enemies.
Isn't it obvious? You have no soul. He spun around and lay down, made himself comfortable against the rocks.. At least, not a whole one that resides within you. When you and I struck our bargain, you offered your soul, your essence, in exchange for those slim little legs of yours. Now, I didn’t take all that makes you the boy you are. I left the darker parts of your truth. You see, the thoughts you have are yours. They were just kept away by the goodness you had inside.
Antoni sunk down, defeated and hopeless. I never realized… I, I ruined my chance of happiness simply by chasing the one I love. How can I win his heart if I can’t even…
Oh, my poor boy, you give up far too easily. You can still have that which you desire, assuming you can keep from killing him. You may not have the “good” parts of yourself but you can still do good things.
But these urges to hurt others are so intense. How can I fight against it when I don’t even realize when it’s happening?
Antoni pushed off the ground and swam up as fast as he could. As he broke the surface, he took a deep, hard breath of salty sea air before dropping back and bobbing in the water as the guilt his horrid thoughts had filled him with subsided.
When he was again in control of his emotions, he looked toward the beach, amazed how far away it was, and wondered how to remove Annalisa and the others who wished him gone without resorting to the drastic measures that, with each new day, seemed to feel less and less… wrong.
TO BE CONTIUED