If I were strong
I’d stand up to you
And never let you get away with
All this monstrous abuse
If I weren’t weak
I’d swallow this shame
I could walk out of this life for good
And never look on it again
If I were brave
I wouldn’t put on a show
And pretend my life was perfect and
I’d just pack my things and go
If I weren’t scared
I’d strike out on my own
Leave you so far behind me now
And make my way back home
But I’m just a boy
Who doesn’t know who I am
And questions every step I take
So far from who I should have been
I listened to you
Now look where I am
Beaten down to nothingness
Nothing but a pathetic sham
If I were smart
I’d get rid of you
Finally do all those things that I
I always dreamed that I would do
If I weren’t a fool
I’d run far away from
And ignore your empty promises
While I searched for my brand new day
If I were hard
I’d brace for the pain
That your cruelty rains down on me
With the break of every day
If I weren’t soft
I might even fight back
Show you I’m worth more than all your lies
Finally find myself at last
’cause I am a boy
Searching for who I am
I have faced the pain every day
And I’ll never back down again
I won’t listen to you
No not ever again
I will walk away and heal the pain
Refuse to let you pull me back in
Because I am strong
I’m taking my life back
My mind is made I break away
My life is set on my own track
Because I am brave
I’ll make myself safe
You’ll never hear a word from me
I’m gone without a single trace
Because I am smart
I can make it alone
I don’t need nobody holding me
And dragging me into their hole
Because I am hard
I will bury the love
I once had for you so long ago
That tugs on the strings of my heart
’cause I am a boy
On my own I can stand
And I know this road ahead is hell
But I’ll do for me the best that I can
I am a boy
Deserving of love
And no matter what you do to me
I will never ever give up